I always hear about how difficult life can get, yet somehow it never seems those things will actually happen to me. But when they do make it around my way, I find myself stunned to pieces. That seems to sum up the last few weeks of mine and Ben's life together. A week from this last Monday, after about 11 1/2 weeks of pregnancy, Ben and I found out that we had lost our little baby. Our overflowing joy over being pregnant ended in a not-so-happy moment. It amazes me how much we truly have to learn in this life. It has been a rough couple of weeks with all of this news coming just a week before Ben's finals for his third quarter of medical school.
Despite the blow our hearts have taken, we have been blessed with an incredible support group of friends and family. Our friends out here in Kirksville came to our aid just hours after we received the news and my sweet mother flew out from California the very next day. The phone calls, meals, and flowers were nearly endless over the next few days. We feel lucky to have that kind of support in such trying times. We have pushed through the last couple of weeks and are taking life day by day. Thank you to everyone who has been so loving, compassionate, and supportive at this time of life for us. We are hoping and praying that this blogspot will contain joyful information someday about the child we hope to get in the not too distant future, and then lots more after that.
Ben is almost done with school for a nice long summer break of six weeks. We both cannot wait until this Monday at 4:00pm, and then freedom!! I feel as if I say this over and over, but I mean it more than ever this time--we are both so excited for some much needed time together!! Our plans for the next little portion of our lives have changed a great deal, but we are trying to look forward to the little things like working on our house together, Ben's parents visiting us this June (which is right around the corner!), vacationing in Utah and California for July with family, and moving on to second-year medical school student status this fall. Ben will be glad that he is no longer a freshman; that title never seems to disappear when your schooling goes well beyond High School.
When I stop being lazy we will have some pictures of friends, improvements on our house, and Ben and I up for a visual of our lives in the last little while.
2 comments:
You guys are incredible and will have the previous joy you felt in your lives again. Keep up the positive attitude and enjoy your time together. Congrats on finishing your first year of medical school Ben. We love you both and can't wait to see you in July. Love, Mom
Hi...this is Jenni Warner (Collier). I am one of Ben's friends from way back in elementary school and I just happened to come across your blog. I am so sorry for the loss of your baby. I live in fear of that every day and reading what you wrote was really touching. I wish for you guys so much happiness and I hope that one day, if I ever have to go through this I will have the same courage and faith you have shown in this post. Thank you!
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